Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Some good news, some not so good news....

First the good news. All of my samples and tests came back negative so for now, they think it was just a hemorrhoid that bled out. Weird and gross but at least I don't have to go see a gastro. doc. I really didn't want to have to do that! I haven't had any other problems so I'm hoping the bleeding will be limited to that one time, lovely grocery store experience ;-)

And now the not so good news....

About a week ago my tummy started itching. It's completely normal for my tummy to itch, especially when the boys go through a growth spurt and my skin stretches some more, but it usually calms down after a day or two. This time it didn't. It got worse but I still assumed it was just the stretching. A friend even asked me, "Are you sure your doctors are ok with your skin looking like that?" I just assumed she was appalled by my lovely stretch marks! Finally this past Sunday I asked Josh to take a look. At this point I can only see the top of my belly so anything belly button and below is a mystery to me. Josh took a look and said, "I think you better look at this." He got me a mirror and much to my surprise I was growing a lovely rash that had probably been there for almost a week but I had no idea.

The two days after that were not very fun, especially at night. It itches so badly and if I give in and itch it, it burrrrrnsssss. I went to the doctor and they confirmed my worst fear: It's PUPPP or Pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy. The reason this was my worst fear is because PUPPP has only one cure and that is birth. I am stuck with this nasty, painful, itchy rash until my wonderful little boys are born. Boo to that.

It really isn't so bad....until I try to sleep at night. The itching is unbearable at night, let alone relaxing my body enough to fall asleep. It has been a battle the last 3 nights and I'm sure it's just begun. PUPPP supposedly spreads to your chest and legs so the fun has just begun!

I'm trying to stay positive and think of all my blessings. I'm so grateful that so far, this is the biggest complication I've had in my very high-risk pregnancy. That in and of itself is truly a miracle to me. If this is all I have to deal with and in the end I come home with 2 healthy, beautiful babies, I will be one lucky, blessed individual.

Jesus thank you for this blessing and please give me strength to get through these next weeks. Oh, and if you could give me some will power over the itching that would be nice too! ;-)


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